Fall mornings just hit differently in Maine . The trees are just starting to change colors which is physical proof that we have closed the door on Summer. This season reminds me that we all need to periodically shed things that don’t serve us and that change is imminent. I don’t currently have anything to shed, however change has been a massive constant in my life the last six months. I feel like a bare tree that hasn’t had regrowth in many seasons. Battling feelings of regret, hopelessness, and truly just grieving all we left behind and all that hasn’t come to be yet here in Maine. I’m hoping that soon enough leaves will grow in the shapes of a new job, a new house, a new community. But waiting is hard, especially when you get close and it doesn’t end up working out time after time again. Days like today where you get unfavorable news multiple times (another job rejection when you’re more than qualified, real estate woes, etc.) and also realized you missed a whole summer of spending time with your parents in their back yard… it brings up doubt and makes me want to crawl back to what used to be. It makes me feel like I’ll be stuck like this forever but because change is imminent, things have to settle eventually. I’m impatient but most days I’m hopeful.
Laugh Through It 